Above the kitchen table where my children color,their big calendar frames a drawing—
Down empty roads gray with rain; through branches of new leaves then still more light than leaf;
At first the surpriseof being singled out,the dance floor crowdedand me not looking my best,a too-often-worn dressand the man with mea budding casualtyof one repetition too much.
There is this sunny place where I imagine him.A park on a hill whose grass wants to turnInto dust, & would do so if it weren’t
I read the papers and think about hatred:and the way ideas, especially big ideas,look more and more like excuses for hatred.